Exitus acta probat.

Have you ever walked down the street and stumbled upon a person who made you stop in your tracks? Beautiful. Graceful. Thin. Ethereal. Was it almost as if they were too perfect to exist? Well, I want to be that person. This is just one way to reach my goal. I feel as if I'm trapped in a cage, and the only way to claw my way out is to shrink and reveal the person I dream to be. Perfection is unattainable by nature, but I sure as hell can try.



Maybe I should introduce myself. I'm an eighteen-year-old university student and live in the northeastern United States. What do I want to do when I'm older? Go to medical school, as ironic as that may sound. Classes start soon, and I would like to lose a few pounds before then. Last semester went very well, and hopefully it will this time around. I'm going to be overwhelmed with classes and time in the lab, but it should be interesting.

Drum roll...

Height: 5'7"

Heighest weight: 169 pounds

Current weight: 160 pounds

I want to be 110 pounds. Even though most people think I weigh around 135 or 140 pounds, I can't tolerate what I see in the mirror. My waist is narrow, but my hips are too wide and my breasts are too small. I am around a U.S. size 8 in jeans, I believe.

Yesterday's intake:

Almonds (200 calories)

Cafe au lait with organic soy milk (180 calories)

2 small oranges (120 calories)

Tofu and vegetable soup (150 calories)

Steamed brown rice (400 calories?)

Unsweetened tea (0 calories)

Today's intake so far:

Almonds (200 calories)

1 small orange (60 calories)

Unsweetened tea (0 calories)